Monday, March 26, 2007

Psychic Powers: Check!

Friday, I got a call from daycare. They told me that Captain Adventure was ‘favoring’ his hurt arm, refusing to eat lunch and otherwise being pissy. @*^&@. For those of you keeping score at home, I had already taken Tuesday and Wednesday, two (2) days, off last week to tend his every whim. I was 98% certain he was faking it, but 2% unsure so I went to get him anyway.

Yup. Faking it. Big time. Hey, you know, grabbing the arm and whining got me extra cuddles and attention, right? Let’s try it again!

I have not had a full week’s work in, well…(casts back in mind, realizes mind is long-gone, consults wall calendar, duuuuuh, hmm, no still can’t…goes to Aztec calendar, still a little confused so goes with generality)…let’s call it ‘since Thanksgiving’.

And in the recent past? Ear infection, flu, cold, ear infection, center closed for Polyester Appreciation Day, whatever.

Every. Single. Week.

Without. Fail.

Add in the usual and customary baloney that goes along with being the Mother of Chaos and people – it is not pretty around here. I am working into the night and over weekends trying to keep up with my work commitments, and this impacts Everything Else and then suddenly I’m under a tidal wave of crazy-talk and really just want to go curl up in a corner and cry.

And then this morning, ONCE AGAIN, I had Captain Adventure home with me. Ear infection is impending, so I kept him home hoping that if I could keep his sinuses dry, I might head it off at the pass.

Now, I told you that so I could tell you this: My boss? Is psychic. I’m serious. {twilight zone music} Freaky.

This morning, after I had ONCE AGAIN emailed my ‘home sick with toddler’ missive to the troops, I was sitting with my laptop attempting to draft a resignation letter because, you know. Enough is e-@*^&@ing-nough. I don’t need to work to keep bread on the table and the roof over our heads. I like to work, and the extra money would be great (or I suppose I should say that if I kept any, after taxes and childcare, it would be great), but I don’t have to and I’m just adding endless complication to Life here…

I had gotten as far as, “Dear Boss…”

And, uh, that was it. I just couldn’t seem to get any further than that.

If I hated my job, it would be easy. If I disliked my boss or my coworkers, it would be easy. If I really didn’t want to work any more, it would be a cakewalk. But I don’t. It’s just that it really is coming to a point where my working is going head to head with my family’s needs – and, well, I have a proven track record where that’s concerned. I have my core values. I have my priorities. I know what I really value.

But…wah. Wannit all. WANNIT ALL! WAH!

So I had the ‘Dear Boss’ letter sitting there most of the morning while I tried to force my fingers to put something professional and succinct in there. (I am not succinct. Especially not when writing what equates to a Dear John letter. It’s not you, it’s me. Don’t get me wrong, I love you guys. I love you like family. It tears my guts out to say I need to leave you. But you deserve better. That’s how much I love you – I must leave you because you deserve better.)

My phone rang right in the middle of a tirade from Captain Adventure, who did not wish to take his cold medicine. I cannot blame the boy. He has been on this stuff for weeks now, and I believe he may both develop a deep, abiding aversion to the color purple and learn to talk just so he can call CPS and tell them I am making him a drug addict. “I’m serious, man, she’s been giving me so many hits of Triaminic…I don’t even know what year this is, dude…”

So it was a little while later that I went in and saw my message light flashing. It was my boss, letting me know that I have options with this company. Specifically, if I wanted to talk to him about switching to part time work, you know, so I could get some balance etc. etc., well. We’d work something out. If I wanted to talk about it, he was listening. If not, forget he ever called. It’s just a thought, just so you know, in case.

I swear, my first thought was, How did he know?!

Seriously. His call was not one of those ‘you’ve been out a lot and I want to punish you’ calls. It was like…he totally knew I was going off the deep end and about to walk, and he wanted to give me this other option before I did so. It was…well, it was both a professional call, and a call from a friend.

I’m going to talk to him about it tomorrow, when I have some peace and quiet in the Den. I think it may be an excellent solution, if we can work out the details such that my work schedule works around the school schedule.

If it works out, great! I make a little extra money from home without having my kids in daycare. If it doesn’t, great! I can make a leisurely exit rather than having to say, “OK, and daycare is over and I’m out of here in T-minus three days and counting – found my replacement yet? No? Oh. How about now? OK. {beat, beat} Now?”

Never a dull moment around here, huh?!

7 comments:

Eclair said...

You've been reading my mind. I'm in the middle of writing (finally) something for the blog and wittering on about things coming to a head. This is exactly the sort of thing that has happened to me - but from the other side. I bet your boss knew all about how you were feeling because, if they are a good boss, they care enough to observe, keep in touch and be aware of your other commitments. And they won't want to lose you.

I'm glad things are looking like they will work out. We are digging ourselves out of a hole here and stuff is getting better but it's pretty rotten being stuck at the bottom of a very deep rut.

Also: sympathy on the drug-your-baby thing. Me too. If daughter doesn't come off the medicine soon I swear she's going to turn Barbie pink and smell like strawberries for life. She must be pickled in the stuff by now. I should have bought shares in Glaxo when I was pregnant...

Renee said...

You are very lucky to have an understanding boss. I hope it all works out for you.

Jessica said...

Ahh yes. The balancing act. It is a constant struggle. I know it well.

It does sound like you work for a great group of people, so that is good! Good luck!

Very Herodotus said...

Going part-time - oh, how I covet! Good for you, MoC!! What a weight off your shoulders that email must have been ~

Amy Lane said...

Go for it...I had to fight my entire district for the right to work part time--and for that one blissful year we could afford it, it was totally worth it!!!

wrnglrjan said...

woo hoo!

That rocks. Snatch it up before they change their mind, is my advice.

Jan

Coach Susan said...

suh-WEET! I'm holding out here at Busywork, Inc. because I want to play the Part Time card once we no longer qualify for Day Care (it's still against the law to abandon school, right?) and someone has to be home by two-bleein'-o-clock to avoid Latchkeymia. I'm imagining having to get down on my knees and beg. You should snatch like a dieting dog at this bone being waved in front of you.