Wednesday, December 17, 2008

I am not very accepting

My Daily OM horoscope today is all about Accepting Uncertainty.

The important life decisions you are facing today could make you feel like being more cautious…Since we can’t control the ways in which our future unfolds, it is important for us to learn to find the balance between discretion and acceptance of uncertainty.

Oh…whatever!

OK, OK, I’m having one of my “frozen due to excesses of Important Decisions” moments right now. And by “moments” I mean “months.”

Or perhaps I mean quarters, since really I’ve been in this kind of state since my husband’s “real” job went *poof!* at the beginning of October.

I am not accepting uncertainty particularly well right now – even though I have no choice. It’s not like me saying, “I don’t accept that I can’t know what is the right/wrong choice here” is going to change the fact that we are awash in factors outside of our control and that really, there is no “right” or “wrong” choice to make.

It’s all a matter of degrees. Whether I go with Insurance Choice A or B, there will be some percentage of wrong, and some percentage of right. Neither will be perfect. Neither will be unfathomably horrible.

What is horrible is the “none of the above” option. The option where I just sit here and do nothing, hoping that maybe it will all either resolve itself, or somehow become, you know…clear.

But I’m really struggling anyway. I know that the only bad choice here would be no choice at all, and that it will be OK because, well, what’s the worst that can happen, really? So, just…go ahead. Do the best you can with the knowledge you have now, and then just relax and enjoy the ride, right?

After all, my horoscope insists that:

By realizing that you can’t control the outcome of your decisions today, you will develop a greater peace of mind about what the future holds for you.

See?

So. There you go.

I should be developing greater peace of mind aaaaaaaaany second now…here it comes…peace of mind…arriving shortly…

(hmm…maybe it’s stuck at the post office? After all, it is the busy season for them, right…?)

5 comments:

meezermeowmy said...

Knit on through all adversity. It doesn't make the adversity go away, but at least you get to knit.

Hugs and best wishes!

Casdok said...

Hope that peace of mind finds you soon.

Steph B said...

SO with you right now. Hang in there, pray hard and knit much!

terena said...

I've struggled with this for YEARS, Sis, and I'm only now able to accept that I can't plan for every option. IMPOSSIBLE. All I can do is make the best choice I can right now, knowing full well that the future can change the outcome at any point.Occasionally, I do use the eeny-meeny-mineey-moe approach. When the choices seem equal, just different, that might be all I can do.

Take a deep breath and believe in your ability to make good choices. Then throw a dart. :-)

Dysd Housewife said...

I haven't had peace of mind..since somewhere in the late 80's.. LOL